So many thoughts run through my head. I don't take the word Love for granted anymore.

The corny saying that says I finally realize why it didn't work with anyone because I met you rings true for me.

I have loved. I was married. I am divorced. It changes things. Always and forever didn't turn out to be always and forever. I grew up watching fairy tales living in a family of divorce. I vowed to be different and said that would never be me. Once it happened to me I thought about it differently though. I had been looking at it all wrong. Instead of focusing on being the one that would be different and rushing to meet the timeline I had in my head I made mistakes. My story was filled with I love you. Always and forever. We were very different people. We fought constantly. We didn't respect each other. We tried to hurt each other. We didn't communicate. We didn't have the same values or goals in life. It took me a few relationships after my separation to finally figure out my repeat mistakes and that I need to find someone made for me not someone that I have to make excuses for or compromise/change my views to make them happy.

I look at relationships differently now. I threw away my timeline. I am taking it slow. My divorce is final. I have my maiden name back. It is my second chance at life. I plan to do it right this time.

As I look back on my posts I cannot decide to delete the whole blog and start over or keep it. It's been over a year and my life is totally different.

I come from a family of divorce and I always said I wanted to be different. I was going to be different. I can now look back at my family and at the amazing people they are and if they had problems and are not perfect I cannot admit I am not perfect as well. April 13th my divorce will be final. I don't regret my past with my ex but I can look back and do things differently the next time. I have had a few relationships since my ex and I find myself making the same stupid decisions and falling for the same assholes. Finally accepting singleness and working on myself and deciding what things I will do differently I found someone and I am happy.

My personal trainer is trying to kill me...

This is my before picture....After will be posted after Halloween!
So session 2 of personal training did not go like the first session. After my first session the next day I was sore and the second day I was walking like the bride of frankenstein. I even went to the pool to help stretch out. Working out the second day definitely helped me loosen up.

I weigh in weekly at the gym and I've already lost 2 lbs and 1% body fat! Woo!

My trainer joked that I signed a paper saying if she killed me she wouldn't be responsible...well last night that almost happened. I have asthma. I hate hate hate running on the treadmill. Well treadmill + chest presses + asthma = me almost dying because I didn't have my inhaler with me.

A new me

For many years I have had ideas in my head. I have always wanted a tattoo and I have always wanted to get my nose pierced. I found a recommendation for a great place and I had planned to go and get my nose pierced. While we were there I decided to "talk" about what I wanted for my tattoo. He drew it up and said depending on me he could do it in 30 minutes. I looked at my husband who immediately began to freak out. Even though I have been talking about this for years I think he thought I would never get it done. He gave me a look the entire time but he did hold my hand. Getting my nose pierced was scary because they made me sit up and the needle was BIG. I closed my eyes.

The tattoo felt like a bee sting if the bee kept stinging you and had a needle for a stinger. It hurt but I didn't cry. I did say a few choice words occasionally. Faith is the one thing that continues to get me through everything. The butterfly is for my mama. She is my hero. The colors have been my favorite colors since I was little. I am not a pink or purple girl.

My sister in law asked if I was having a quarter life crisis. I said no and I believe that. I feel that 25 is a year for making decisions. I'm working on my 101 in 1001 days list, I am going to school full time, I am reaching my goals.

I think one of the changes I have been wanting to make for awhile is my weight. I want to be who I was years ago when I went to the gym and ate healthy. I have a new slogan or whatever you want to call it...Hot for Halloween. My husband and I joined a gym. It has a few locations that are very easy for us to get to. I pass one on my way home from work and my husband has one near his work too. I laid down cash for a personal trainer. 12 weeks 2 x a week for an hour and hopefully this will let me reach my goal of 50 lbs by Halloween. Woo go me.

Purex 3 in 1 laundry sheet

I signed up for a free sample not to long ago on Deal Wise Mommy through a link she posted. Everyone should follow her blog. This is my second free sample I have gotten so far and she has great giveaways.

I used the laundry sheet last night to wash our sheets and duvet. Toss in the sheet and go. The sheets came out smelling clean and they were definitely less wrinkled than when I use my other laundry detergent. Two thumbs up from me!

No fear

I was told that my 3 year old took her ducky and threw it into the water and jumped in after it...into the deep end...without her life jacket on. The kid has no fear. There is a similar story told by my grandpa. My mom dove into the pool and my little 18 month old self decided I wanted to go in with her. My grandpa pulled me out and I was smiling.

As kids we want a cookie we go for the cookie. As adults we want a cookie, we debate if we need the cookie, if we can afford the cookie, who has the cookie for the best price, the best way to get the cookie, the best way to eat the cookie, and the best thing to eat/drink with our cookie. I often get caught up in over planning everything. I always have a to do list. I LOVE checking stuff off my to do lists. I even went out and bought a white board so I could put stuff on it for my husband and I to get stuff done around the house.

You can plan when to get married and all the little details, you can plan on when to buy a house, you can even plan when to start trying for a baby but you cannot plan when to get pregnant. That is unless you are one of those that is brimming with fertility and you look at your husband and you are instantly knocked up.

I'm trying to be more laid back and not over plan. Jon's mom came and I didn't plan a single thing beforehand. I did wake up and get out my day trip guide and plan for the day but I am making progress. This weekend was our first weekend free in forever so I made no plans. Saturday I actually slept in. I had to stay up till 3 am to get myself to sleep in but still. I stayed in pj's all day and we watched movies, I edited pictures, I procrastinated on my homework, I made dinner and dessert, and did not plan or do one thing on my to do list. ::pats self on back::

Sunday I worked my butt off on only 3 hours sleep. I finally stopped when Jon told me dinner was ready. I then worked on putting that stupid spare bedroom together until 12ish.

Have you ever had something on your mind and then you go to church and the pastor does a whole sermon on it? That happened to me this weekend. I have been throwing around some thoughts in my head and with Jon and BAM. I almost didn't even go to church because I only had 3 hours of sleep. Ok God I get it...I heard you. :-)

long time no blog

I have gotten out of I practice with blogging every day. This week has been crazy busy.



I have been checking things off my 101 in 1001 days list like crazy this past week. I have a major update to do later tonight.

Looking at my ten things Tuesday I need to get moving on some of the things on the list.

I puffy heart love my new camera. It is part of the reason I have been such a slacker this week. I have taken pics of the kids and everything else around me and I have been editing in photoshop.

Ten Things Tuesdays

10 Things Tuesdays! Ten things made you happy this week? Blog about ‘em! Ten things you want to do before the week’s over? Blog ‘em! Any ten things, any theme you wish, every Tuesday over at Magnolia Queen.

Ten things for this week

1. Put new bed together

2. Finish half of my 26 things photo challenge

3. Finish Mod 8 early

4. Finish reading two books

5. Clean my tires

6. Grocery shopping

7. Clean out pantry and fridge

8. Laundry- put it away

9. Fix the rug in the living room

10. Make a dessert one night with dinner

Dude

I say this way too much. In fact my 6 year old I watch looked at me the other day and said "Dude"

Everyone does Not me Monday well I am going to do Random Monday because I think about stuff every day on the way to work and then I forget about it later.

When I see trash bags on the side of the road (random ones not the kind that the guys in orange fill up) I think its a dead person or puppies/kittens. My mom told me a story about finding a bag of puppies left to die and now that is all I can think of...and I watch way too many csi type shows.

Once we were staying in the OBX and a dead body washed up on shore. My mom woke me up to tell me about it and was upset that she was not the one to find it since she decided against her morning run. We talked about how we would've mapped out the crime scene. The victim was not a murder victim but a drowning victim from a few days/weeks?

 

I never understood Dh's love for his xbox until Sunday when I got my new DSLR camera. OMFG I would sleep with it if I could. I used it all day and even had to charge the battery. I think the 3 year old thinks I am her personal paparazzi now. Bacardi (cat #1) is now on to me and as soon as I took out the camera he went behind the couch. Too bad for him my camera came with a better lens I have awesome zooming capabilities.

Dh and I have created a monster and her name is Stoli (dog #2) She sleeps with us, she wanders the house during the day, I feed her table scraps when Dh is not looking, I cuddle her, I buy her stuffed animals for her to tear apart. She has recently decided that although she is a mama's girl and ALWAYS has to be next to me or sitting on my foot has decided she loves her daddy too. She has to sleep in between us. If we decide to tell her no she will climb and lay on top of us. The sad thing is I tell Dh to move over so Stoli can have more room. We have a king size bed... I am not saying I don't love my other dogs/cats but Stoli is the baby even though she is not the youngest. If Bam Bam and Tini didn't pee or poop in the house even after they went out they wouldn't have to be crated during the day/night. I know the other animals will probably tolerate baby C but I wonder about Stoli.

I love my husband and we are about to celebrate two years of marriage. Somehow my husband managed to inherit the stupid gene and there is no think before I speak option on his mouth. My husband is 5'10" and weighs about 155 now. When I met him he was about 125. I quickly accepted the fact that I would never weigh less than my husband. I am a fat girl and I always have been well except for the time I starved myself and worked out for hours a day. That was fun. I don't do temptation well...so if it is in my house you cannot expect me to say no to it.

If you scroll down you can read about when my husband called me fat. Well he didn't come right out and say it but he stared, he made comments, and stared some more. He also came right out and said "an unhealthy way to get to a healthy weight...whatever works...as long as you stop once you get to your goal weight" Anyone with an eating disorder will tell you you don't just stop when you are happy... because well I don't think you are ever happy. I ate twice in 7 days and then Dh had a problem with me not eating. WILL YOU MAKE UP YOUR MIND!

I am fat and I want to be healthy for baby C and I need to diet. I also have a husband who said tonight "We have nothing to eat" He is too lazy to open the freezer/pantry and fix something for himself. We have bbq, hot dogs, meat balls, pasta, amongst other sides and goodies in our pantry/freezer. He doesn't eat fruit and eats limited veggies. God forbid I feed him something twice in one week. I am about to say eff it and make him fend for himself so I can diet the healthy way and not by starving myself because I know that is just stupid.

Thankful Thursday

After my other post I need a thankful post because I have many things to be thankful for.

1. Awesome friends- two of in particular listen to me vent about everything and anything and don't judge me when I text them after eating an entire bag of chips. Also for my friend who watched the zoo for us while we were at my parents boat.

2. I just sent the final payment for our house rental in the mountains. This means we are a month away from a week long in the mountains away from it all! WOO HOO!

3. Even though I won't get to keep my insurance and have maternity at least I will still have insurance with maternity through dh!

4. The new bed for the spare room. It will be the one room in the house that is almost completely decorated minus paint.

5. short work weeks. I had off Monday and Tuesday and went in at 1 on Wednesday. I got off early today and I get to go in a teeny bit late tomorrow!

6. Family- We had the best time with my family this past weekend and I am excited to see dh's mom this weekend.

7. Although I hate my online class I am kicking ass and just got an A on that project I blogged about that I was too stressed/depressed to work on and turned it in with 2 min to spare.

A winery we stopped at

Cool pirate hat with hair for my dad- This isn't my dad

Dh and I

Dh while tubing

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That is how I feel right now. There is way too much going on and my mind cannot even process it.

So I thought my new insurance would be dealt with quick and easy and turns out it is not. I think I screwed up one of the questions on my application and I was denied. Stupid mistake=so mad at myself. So I will be on Dh's insurance. This sucks on so many levels. I cannot wait to see how much we pay for a  Rx...UGH! Oh well at least I have insurance.

We spent July 4th with my parents and we had the best time. I could've used the time away from Dh but it was nice to have him there some of the time. lol. I missed fireworks on Saturday. I was an idiot and I admit it. We woke up with the sun seeing as we sleep on the back of the boat on an air mattress. Dh left for tubing and I walked and talked the docks with my mom. I started with Sangria and we headed to a friends boat. My glass was empty and she was offering Merlot. If you know me I ALWAYS get in trouble when I drink other people's stuff or I mix. Instead of saying no I said of course. 2 glasses later....we were hot so we headed to the pool. Another glass or two (I don't really remember) and I was drinking bottled water but I don't even remember dh arriving back at the pool or what I said to my mom. I remember starting to feel sick and puking in the bathroom. I was so pissed at myself for doing that to myself. I ended up in the bottom of the boat with the a/c with my head in a trashcan. Thanks for my mom who diligently took care of me and wiped my forehead with a wet washcloth, helped me change my clothes, gave me stomach meds to help my stomach, and made sure I was still alive. Dh checked on me but I would've been all on my own if my mom wasn't there. I did catch a few fireworks from the porthole but for the most part by then I was asleep.

I was up at 6 the next morning and feeling good. Everyone kept asking how I was and asking me if I wanted any wine. I took everything with a smile on my face.

My online class I am currently taking sucks. Our discussion questions are mini projects not actually discussion questions. It is also accelerated because it is a summer course. Who is working 60 hours and taking 4 classes in the fall. That is right...me! Suicide by education?

My house is a disaster and dh's mom comes tomorrow. While we were away this weekend our spare bed broke. I had to drop $200 on a new one. I am sad that our spare bedroom has a new bed before our master.

My summer is completely booked and my other mil wants to fly down and visit for a weekend. I don't think we have a free weekend until September. Is that normal?

I want to start a diet soon. I am leaning towards the sugar busters diet. Dh is my downfall. I HAVE to lose this extra weight though.

Procrastination

Ok so I have a 5 page paper and activity due online at 5pm. There are only 30 minutes left of nap time...and I am blogging. What is even worse is that it took me a good 5-10 min googling procrastination images. If it makes you feel better I have 4 pages written and I found a website that I can use to model my lesson plan after. All plans to finish the project on Monday failed after I just couldn't get the energy up to do it and all I wanted to do was cry.

 

Maybe now I can get back to this stupid paper. I really do not enjoy online classes. By working at your own pace that means tuesday night and wednesday during down times I frantically work to get everything done.

My girl loves blueberries

I took my little one to pick blueberries and blackberries today. She was in a great mood when I arrived in the morning so I knew it was going to be a good day. We sang and danced in the car on the way to the farm. We applied our sunscreen and had our water bottles. I don't like blueberries but it was fun to pick them. She didn't want to leave and I kept finding her sneaking a few into her mouth in between picking.

My day ended early and I headed over to another friends house to work on a school project. Her 6 year old put up with me asking her question after question and finally I think I got what I needed. Even though I was off early today I didn't really use my time wisely. I got home took the dogs out and fed them and then I laid in bed and cried. My mom called and it was good to talk to her. I think I have made the decision that I don't want dh to come this weekend. I think it would be good for us to be apart.

We saw Toy Story 3 at the Imax. It was really good and had I of not been in a crying mood I don't think I would've cried but I am glad I didn't take the 3 year old to see it. It has a few intense moments and I noticed I wasn't the only one to cry.

She's only happy in the Sun

I took this about a week ago on my way to dinner. If it was always sunny then there wouldn't be rainbows.

I had an uneventful week last week yet I feel like I was run over by a truck. Being off birth control has left me looking like a 13 year old that doesn't wash her face...I swear I do though. I feel like a fat cow. I feel like I do everything yet nothing is getting done. Most days I am invisible trying to even be translucent. I feel like I am just going through the motions and the only way people see me is if they accidentally step on me. Dh lately has seemed to have lost his filter on his mouth and on more than one occasion this week one comment has brought me to tears.

I was able to get away for the weekend to see one of my best friends. I met her online through the knot and I am sad she lives 3 hours away. I miss the days of the knot when we had gtg's and hung out and I felt like I had a life. When I was feeling less invisible. I had friends. We try to e-mail and facebook and text but both of us have husbands and furry kids and school and sometimes it is hard. We finally picked a weekend and decided to stick with it. Being in the car alone on the drive was nice. No one complained how fast I was driving or how loud the music was. We had a great time talking and shopping and eating. I was able to check a few things off my 101 in 1001 days list too. I did open my mouth and say something stupid which just added to the weight of things I hate about myself this week. I thought about it the entire drive home about what an idiot I am. When I got home dh was complaining about something and made another comment that I cried about.

This is Neko. He was checking out all the cool stuff we got while shopping.

This is Jewel and Knight. They are greyhound rescue's and they are the sweetest and softest doggies. I wanted to take them home with me.

Nanny =/= baby-sitter

I find that a lot of people think my job is all fun and games and I never actually work. Last night I was at work till 11ish and I will tell you my body sure did feel like it was working hard all day.

While I do enjoy downtime during naps, we swim, go to the library, play at the park...and numerous other activities my children learn. I will brag about my amazing 3 year old for a second and compare her to another 3 year old that is 6 months older than her. My child spends her time with a nanny- me and the other child is watched by her grandmother. I am sure the little girl still has tons of fun and gets lots of love and hugs but so does my child.

Example- Lets say A is my child and B is the playdate girl. A is 3 and B is 3.5 approximately. We decided to play the lady bug game. (a great game for little ones and I don't hate it after playing it 4 times a day 5 days in a row. So A knows that green means go and red means backwards. Red does confuse her a little bit because at stop lights she knows green means go, red means stop, and yellow means slow down...in the game red means go backwards. They have little yellow squares to help the child count how many squares to go forward or backward. A knows her numbers up to 9 by sight so when she sees 4 she doesn't have to count the squares. She shows me 4 fingers and says go, 4 spaces, move ahead. Cuteness. B looked at me like I had 3 heads. I had her count the squares. B can count but the concept of counting squares was lost on her. She also could not tell me which way was forward or backward and even had trouble when I said move that way and pointed.

While A and I do a lot of "play" during the day there is not a moment I am not thinking how can I teach her something during this. Learning should be fun.

A can write her name, knows the alphabet song and can identify at least 10 letters, can count to 20, can count to 10 on her fingers, does simple math, can follow rules in a game with help, she knows how to move the mouse and click on a button on the computer, she dresses herself, can go potty herself, has been known to get her own food from the counter/fridge when mommy is in the other room. She is also a no fear swimmer. I practiced swimming with her yesterday and took off her life jacket. She is finally tall enough to touch the bottom and ready for swim lessons. She was jumping off the second step swimming under the water after 5 minutes of practicing. I had my arms out every time to catch her but she knew to come up she had to put her feet down. I am so proud of my little one!

Her mom and I joke that when she starts a pre-school program in the fall she will just be going for the social aspect of it.

Id Label giveaway over at I.D. Me labels

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I would love to win these for my kids I work with. We have a few for water bottles but recently we have been going to swim team and the 6 yr old ends up being on his own. We are forever trying to match up which blue croc goes with which child and he is always losing/leaving items at school. I think it is a 6 year old brain thing. The child cannot even remember to close the door when he walks into the house after school. If I say "name" He looks at me with a blank stare and goes " Oh yea door...I forgot" How does one forget the door is open when you just walked through it?

Does light drinking in pregnancy have benefits?

This article is from reuters.com

(Reuters Health) - Could a glass of wine a day early in pregnancy yield better behaved kids? Maybe, according to results of a new study.

HEALTH

Researchers found that the children of women who were light or moderate drinkers (2 to 6 drinks per week or one per day) early in pregnancy tended to have "more positive" behavior than the children of mothers who did not drink at all early in pregnancy.

"This positive behavior meant that the children of light and moderate drinkers had less emotional and behavioral problems through childhood and adolescence," Dr. Monique Robinson, from Telethon Institute for Child Health Research in West Perth, Western Australia, told Reuters Health by email.

The new findings, published in the obstetrics and gynecology journal BJOG, are based on 14 years' worth of data in the Western Australian Pregnancy Cohort (Raine) Study.

The women provided information on their weekly drinking habits during early pregnancy: 59 percent of women reported no drinking; 20 percent reported occasional drinking (up to one standard drink per week); 15 percent reported light drinking (2-6 drinks per week); 3 percent moderate drinking (7-10 per week); and 2 percent reported heavy drinking (11 or more per week).

The behavior of 2,370 children was assessed every 2-3 years between the ages of 2 and 14.

Compared with mothers who did not drink in the first 3 months of pregnancy, those who were light drinkers during this time had better behaved children over 14 years, as indicated by better scores on a standard checklist used by psychologists.

Children of light to moderate drinkers early in pregnancy had a "clinically meaningful" lower risk of internalizing behavior (in which negativity is directed inwards, for example depression) and externalizing behavior (such as aggression), than children of nondrinkers.

As an example, at the age of 14, 127 children of nondrinkers had internalizing problems (14 percent) and 159 (18 percent) had externalizing problems. By comparison, among light drinkers, only 32 children (10 percent) had internalizing problems and 45 (13 percent) had externalizing problems.

Research has shown that moderate drinkers are mentally healthier than both abstainers and addicts, which could help explain these findings, the researchers say. There may biological reasons as well; namely, low doses of alcohol in pregnancy may help calm the mother-to-be, perhaps yielding calming kids.

"Given what we know about the dangers of frequent heavy consumption of alcohol in pregnancy, these results may initially appear surprising," Robinson admitted. For example, fetal alcohol syndrome is a well-described condition. "However, we need to be cautious about generalizing the effects of a heavy alcohol intake to a light consumption of alcohol -- they are not equal."

Robinson also noted that some studies have found a light consumption of alcohol in pregnancy to be associated with positive cognitive outcomes for children. "But the light-to-moderate intake results tend to be overshadowed by the focus on harm at the excessive intake end of the scale," she said.

With about half of all pregnancies in Australia being unplanned (with similar figures for the US and UK), the current findings should be reassuring to women, Robinson said.

"Women may be drinking alcohol in small amounts prior to recognition of the pregnancy and we feel these data highlight that it is unlikely that this has harmed their unborn child's mental health," she said.

"Women should not feel guilty or anxious about low-level drinking effects prior to recognition of the pregnancy. However, binge and large alcohol intake should still be avoided as this does have potential for harm," Robinson emphasized.

Nonetheless, Robinson does not advise women who are pregnant or trying to become pregnant to head to the local pub. She also emphasized that child behavior is "just one of many outcomes that might be assessed with regards to alcohol consumption during pregnancy. While our study found light drinking during pregnancy was not associated with increased risk for the child, national guidelines recommend the safest choice is to avoid alcohol once the pregnancy is known."

"The best option," Robinson said, "is for women to ask their obstetric care provider (obstetrician, midwife, family doctor, etc) and work with that person on their decision regarding alcohol."

SOURCE: link.reuters.com/mek29k BJOG, online May 28, 2010.

Thoughts or comments?

I have cut back on how much wine I intake now that I am trying and I also plan to avoid alcohol in the first trimester. However I do plan to have an occasional glass of wine throughout the rest of my pregnancy should I have no other complications. I can see this article being taken out of hand in women who get knocked up and are semi or full blown alcoholics. A drink is good for the baby. I would be interested in seeing the rates of fetal alcohol syndrome also in the women of the study.

It is amazing to see the show I didn't know I was pregnant and the women that have no prenatal care and continued to drink and smoke and still end up having healthy babies.

Wasn't it 40 years ago doctors encouraged women to smoke to gain less pregnancy weight? It was also when women were knocked out and handed a baby the next morning.

Fresh Blackberry Cobbler from cooks.com

1 stick butter

1 c. milk

1 c. sifted flour

1 c. sugar

1 qt. blackberries

In bottom of baking pan or large baking dish, melt butter. Add milk; do not stir. Sift flour and sugar; add to dish. DO NOT STIR. Add blackberries. Bake at 325 to 350 degrees until crust rises to top and browns.

If you are like me you do not have time to sit and watch your cobbler bake until it browns. I found another recipe that said bake for 30-40 minutes so I used that. In the last 10 minutes though I realized that it also said 375... so I upped the temp and cooked it about 10 minutes longer. I had issues with being told not to stir and I will admit I didn't stir the milk and butter but I did pour the sugar/flour mixture over the blackberries and coated them before adding them to the mixture.

It was super easy to make and I let a 3 year old help me. It turned out great and everyone loved it.

The best laid plans of mice and men...

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart

and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways acknowledge him,

and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

This verse is one of my favorites and often I find myself not following it. Isn't there a joke that says if you want to make God laugh then tell him your plans? I think God laughs at me a lot. I like to plan. I think most people have some idea of a plan they would like. Go to school, get married, win the lottery, have no debt, make millions, own an island... you know the small things in life. For most women it is that they can choose when to get pregnant. Spend x amount of years on birth control and then toss them and throw caution to the wind and 9 months later a baby is born. Boy has society given the wrong impression about being in control of oneself and making your own decisions in regards to birth control. I wish I had known what I know now when I first started taking birth control. I was given birth control around age 16 for my PCOS. I did not know it was PCOS then but just that I had irregular cycles and that birth control regulated them... or so I thought. I highly recommend Taking Charge of your Fertility for any woman who wants to know more about her body and how it works. It is not only for women just trying to conceive.

In other news I had an upper GI on Monday. (see rant below) My Dr. finally called with the results. " He saw the same thing the other Dr. saw in the endoscopy findings" Oh Gee thanks! But I guess that is good that an ulcer isn't what caused the blood when I puked. I guess I am just odd and occasionally throw up blood? The other day my husband said to me " You are just like your mom. There is always something wrong with you and they can never find out what it is and eventually it goes away" They do say the apple does not fall far from the tree and I guess I inherited all my moms odd medical happenings. I would post about her but you would still be reading about her medical issues 72 hours from now. Let's just say that she is that 1% that the Dr. warns you about. Like this procedure blah blah blah has these possible side effects but that only happens in 1% of patients. My mom is that unlucky 1% every time. EVERY time.

Now I am just waiting for my current insurance to end so I can get new insurance with maternity. :-) We also have to schedule DH's urologist appointment. How do you convince a man to see a Dr.? Well the other day I noticed swelling on DH's side and asked him what was going on. He had a previous hernia when he was younger and the swelling was near his scar. I told him he should call the Dr. and have it checked out just to make sure it wasn't a hernia. Dh freaked out and went first thing the next morning convinced he was dying. It really did not help that the Dr. told him to watch for signs of appendicitis just in case. She said she figured it was just a pulled muscle but in the tiniest chance it wasn't to watch it. I had to listen to him whine and complain about dying until I talked him off the ledge and told him he would be fine.

Word Verification

I was reading a discussion on blogfrog yesterday about blogging pet peeves.

I will have to say word verification on any website gets me every time. I do better when they at least give me real words but other than that I think it takes at least 3 tries every time just to get through. When the n looks like an h and you have them all scrunched together...how am I supposed to figure out maldarthy...is that even a word? I feel totally dumb when it comes to them and if I click the handicap button to hear the numbers I think I usually get 3 out of 8? If you are not getting comments it is because I am too dumb to get past your word verification.

I also want to apologize because I did not realize word verification was enabled on my blog. It has since been disabled so feel free to comment away!

This may seem like common sense to most but apparently I am lacking this time in that department. People like comments...so if you are complaining or upset at your lack of comments you should look to see how many comments you have left on other people's blogs. Is that number 3? Then that explains why you only have 2 comments.

I vow to be better at posting comments. :-)

I also learned that people love pictures. I love taking pictures so I will work on getting more on this blog. I like to make people happy.