Monday, July 19, 2010

No fear

I was told that my 3 year old took her ducky and threw it into the water and jumped in after it...into the deep end...without her life jacket on. The kid has no fear. There is a similar story told by my grandpa. My mom dove into the pool and my little 18 month old self decided I wanted to go in with her. My grandpa pulled me out and I was smiling.

As kids we want a cookie we go for the cookie. As adults we want a cookie, we debate if we need the cookie, if we can afford the cookie, who has the cookie for the best price, the best way to get the cookie, the best way to eat the cookie, and the best thing to eat/drink with our cookie. I often get caught up in over planning everything. I always have a to do list. I LOVE checking stuff off my to do lists. I even went out and bought a white board so I could put stuff on it for my husband and I to get stuff done around the house.

You can plan when to get married and all the little details, you can plan on when to buy a house, you can even plan when to start trying for a baby but you cannot plan when to get pregnant. That is unless you are one of those that is brimming with fertility and you look at your husband and you are instantly knocked up.

I'm trying to be more laid back and not over plan. Jon's mom came and I didn't plan a single thing beforehand. I did wake up and get out my day trip guide and plan for the day but I am making progress. This weekend was our first weekend free in forever so I made no plans. Saturday I actually slept in. I had to stay up till 3 am to get myself to sleep in but still. I stayed in pj's all day and we watched movies, I edited pictures, I procrastinated on my homework, I made dinner and dessert, and did not plan or do one thing on my to do list. ::pats self on back::

Sunday I worked my butt off on only 3 hours sleep. I finally stopped when Jon told me dinner was ready. I then worked on putting that stupid spare bedroom together until 12ish.

Have you ever had something on your mind and then you go to church and the pastor does a whole sermon on it? That happened to me this weekend. I have been throwing around some thoughts in my head and with Jon and BAM. I almost didn't even go to church because I only had 3 hours of sleep. Ok God I get it...I heard you. :-)


Whitney said...

That happens to me all the time, especially when I feel like I need it most. Part of the reason I love going to church so much, haha.

Do you feel your life is lacking in spontaneity, due to your planning everything? I sometimes feel that way, even though I'm good at not-planning!

Cameron said...

That's awesome! I'm so glad that you are feeling good about your weekend :) I hope I can learn from you how to relax and be more spontaneous....